New Beginning

It took me a while to decide whether to write about this or not, but it seems like it's the right thing to do.

I'm not lazy, nor stupid, but I'm very irresponsible when it comes to doing the things I want and need to do in order to keep up with the world. Sometimes I think life would be easier way way back when there wasn't as much competition, but then, it would be harder on other fronts, so I quickly dismiss those thoughts.

Thus, the name of this blog, which says a lot I guess.

In my almost quarter of a century long life I came to a conclusion that I'm hardly the only one who's struggling with lack of motivation, and this made me think that maybe I should work harder on staying tuned constantly which lead to creating this piece of cloud. It made me think that maybe if someone else read this, then I would have to write again and in time this will turn into a habit and that habit into discipline... or the other way around.

Anyways.

When it comes to problems, the most effective way to get rid of them is to admit that you have them in the first place. After this big step, you are supposed to dig through your memory or make a quick search about what caused those problems which eventually will lead to understanding whose fault it was, and last but not least, you have to deal with the problem based on their cause. If you don't know what is the cause, then it will be hard to determinate what is the right solution, which brings this back to me and my irresponsibility.

It was very hard to decide what is the reason for my behavior and in all those sleepless nights when I was going through my brains about what is wrong with me, it was always easier to lay the blame on my parents and on the society around me. I thought that they had spoiled me so bad, that they had set the wrong example and now I'm beyond the point of fixing anything for the better. But I was wrong. If the person is mentally and physically capable of taking care for themselves, then every decision they make should be their own to blame. I can relate myself to this.

This first post is one of the many to come. One that made me think that I waste my potential, do nothing other that occasionally make lists about the things I'm supposed to achieve.

This will be the millionth start, one more to add when I criticize myself for giving up too often.